My mind is a raging turmoil. I can't explain why, but all I know is that I am only drawing closer to oblivion if I annot do something about it.

Why am I turning into this? I remember when I used to be the cheerful one, always an image of happiness and joy and pure comedy. Well, technically, I still am. But Time does a lot to a person.

Now I'm only wearing a mask to hide the defects that plague me within. That mask is the only thing that keeps me sane to your eyes. But sooner or later, that cold void will eventually break loose from me, and that may be my very end. That may mean that it will be the end of me. My descent into darkness.

Now maybe you must be thinking: "My, aren't you a big black hole of pity and need". I reject your say. I may be at the edge of sanity, but that doesn't mean I want you to sympathize with me. Simply understand me, and let me be. If you want to help me, then just do it passively rather than actively. I have to fight my inner demons if I want to continue to live.

There isn't much for me to continue living for, save my beloved family, my trusted friends, and maybe even the girl of my dreams. I can only pray that Heaven grants me the strength to push on through thick and thin until I find true meaning in living Life.

I pray that my fortitude will never falter.