The Mysteries Of Life

1. Life itself.
Sure, Life is one heck of a ride. But what exactly is all the meaning of it? Is it just about us living our life? Is it about us devoting time to the things we love? Or does God have His great plans in life for a good reason? We can never really comprehend this fact in its true essence. Every person has their own thoughts on life, and every one differs. Can we really find some unanimous decision to it?

2. Love
It's not hard to see a number of couples all about, here and there, wherever you go. Is it love they feel for one another? People who have been married for long can attest to the fact they've stayed together for so long because of love. But what really makes them love each other? One's beauty? The personality? The thoughts? Something else entirely? What really is love? How are we supposed to explain it in terms understandable to those who don't feel it? And what is it with infatuation in the first place? Man, this one's a really tough cookie.

3. Black Holes
On the subject of science, everyone knows that black holes are giant invisible anomalies in space that consume everything in its path, including light. Now, apart from those facts, and that it can be detected by X-rays and is caused by a massive collapse of a giant star, what are they? We know they eat up everything, but what happens? Does that thingy really destroy everything? Or consumes it and spits it out somewhere else? I haven't a clue, and astrologists are probably still trying to discern more truth behind these devilish cosmic traps. Maybe I'm right, maybe I'm wrong.

(To be continued)

Train's Hey Soul Sister!

Hey, hey, hey

Your lipstick stains on the front lobe of my left side brains
I knew I wouldn't forget you, and so I went and let you blow my mind
Your sweet moonbeam, the smell of you in every single dream I dream
I knew when we collided, you're the one I have decided who's one of my kind

Hey soul sister, ain't the Mr. Mister on the radio, stereo, the way you move ain't fair, you know!
Hey soul sister, I don't want to miss a single thing you do...tonight
Hey, hey,hey

Just in time, I'm so glad you have a one-track mind like me
You gave my life direction, a game show love connection we can't deny
I'm so obsessed, my heart is bound to beat right out my untrimmed chest
I believe in you, like a virgin, you're Madonna, and I'm always gonna wanna blow your mind

Hey soul sister, ain't that Mr. Mister on the radio, stereo, the way you move ain't fair, you know!
Hey soul sister, I don't want to miss a single thing you do...tonight

The way you can't cut a rug, watching you's the only drug I need
You're so gangsta, I'm so thug, you're the only one I'm dreaming of
You see, I can be myself now finally, in fact there's nothing I can't be
I want the world to see you be with me

Hey soul sister, ain't that Mr. Mister on the radio, stereo, the way you move ain't fair, you know!
Hey soul sister, I don't want to miss a single thing you do tonight,
Hey soul sister, I don't want to miss a single thing you do...tonight
Hey, hey,hey

Tonight
Hey, hey,hey

Tonight

Updates

Have been rather busy lately. Have also been neglecting my blog 'cause of Facebook. But don't despair. I'll be back with more stuff, rantings, stories, memories and what-nots after I've settled a few things. Keep in touch, aitez?? XD

What Now?

The blogosphere suddenly seems empty now.

Facebook is the number one way to stay connected I guess.

But I'll stay true to my blog. =)

Living Next Door To Alice by Smokie

Sally called when she got the word,
She said, I suppose you've heard about Alice
Well, I rushed to the window, and I looked outside
I could hardly believe my eyes
As a big limousine rolled up into Alice's drive

Don't know why she's leaving, or where she's gonna go
I guess she's got her reasons but I just don't want to know
'cos for twenty-four years I've been living next door to Alice
Twenty-four years just waiting for the chance
To tell her how I feel and maybe get a second glance
Now I've got to get used to not living next door to Alice

We grew up together two kids in the park
We carved our initials deep in the bark, me and Alice
Now she walks through the door with her head held high
Just for a moment, I caught her eye
A big limousine pulled slowly out of Alice's drive

Sally called back and asked how I felt
And she said, hey I know how to help - get over Alice
She said now Alice is gone but I'm still here
You know I've been waiting for twenty-four years
And the big limousine disapeared

Don't know why she's leaving, or where she's gonna go
I guess she's got her reasons but I just don't want to know
'cos for twenty-four years I've been living next door to Alice
Twenty-four years just waiting for the chance
To tell her how I feel and maybe get a second glance
Now I've got to get used to not living next door to Alice

No I'll never get used to not living next door to Alice

Just Say Yes by Snow Patrol

I'm running out of ways to make you see
I want you to stay here beside me
I won't be ok and I won't pretend I am
So just tell me today and take my hand
Please take my hand
Please take my hand

Just say yes, just say there's nothing holding you back
It's not a test, nor a trick of the mind
Only love

It's so simple and you know it is
You know it is, yeah
We can't be to and fro like this
All our lives
You're the only way to me
The path is clear
What do I have to say to you
For Gods sake, dear
For Gods sake, dear
For Gods sake, dear
For Gods sake, dear
For Gods sake, dear

Just say yes, just say there's nothing holding you back
It's not a test, nor a trick of the mind
Only love

Just say yes, coz I'm aching and I know you are too
For the touch of your warm skin
As I breathe you in

I can feel your heart beat through my shirt
This was all I wanted, all I want
It's all I want
It's all I want
It's all I want
It's all I want

Just say yes, just say there's nothing holding you back
It's not a test, nor a trick of the mind
Only love

Just say yes, coz I'm aching and I know you are too
For the touch of your warm skin
As I breathe you in

Updates

Feeling better now.

Sorry if I've been emo-ed or anything.

Let's just forget that whole fiasco and move on, yeah?

Updates

Getting slightly better.

For now.

Probably nobody will notice.

Solitude

It's nice to have some peace here.

Just with myself and the family, and God too.

Away from the people who call me their friend. And who don't show up in the end.

I'm not surprised at all.

I'll stay away from you guys till I get better. So forgive me if I'm too cruel. But anyway, that's mostly your fault.

Emptiness

Boy do I feel downcast.

As much as I feel glad I got 7As for my SPM, I just feel downcast.

Why so?

The Bucket List

Ever heard of a bucket list? It's a list of things to do made before a person dies in hopes of dying peacefully, contentedly and happily. If you've watched the movie "The Bucket List" that starred Morgan Freeman and Jack Nicholson, then you'd probably understand what it really is. Sure, it's a bit too early for me to start on, but as Kris Allen put it, we gotta "live like we're dying".

So here I have my early bucket list (not in particular or chronological order):
1. Reconnect with old friends.
2. Apologize for all the wrongs done.
3. Open a famous motivational centre.
4. Help at least five hundred people.
5. Failing that, help at least fifty people.
6. Tour Malaysia with the family.
7. Become a philanthropist.
8. Be part of any LaSallian gatherings held.
9. Meet new people.
10. Meet President Obama.
11. Failing that, meet whichever Malaysian Prime Minister in office at future date.
12. Speak out for human rights.
13. Sing in public with a friend or two.
14. Write and publish a book.
15. Be featured in the papers.

Well, it seems more or less like a wish list, but I guess it's supposed to be like one. It IS a bucket list, and whatever happens no one wouldn't want to leave Earth without completing at least 99 percent of it.

What about you guys? Have you a bucket list of your own? Do give me some insights on whatever you'd like to do before you leave the planet. I really want to hear from you! Thanks and see you soon!

A Short Story

Please do tell me how you found it!

Her gaze silently fell on me for quite a while before I turned to look away. Never had I noticed how she would always watch me intently from there since I first arrived, and for some reason it creeped me out. Were her blue eyes trailing me from the start? A voice was telling me she may just be daydreaming since there was nothing to be done, but another crept in with the words: "She pines for you!"

I cursed under my breath at that thought. Perhaps I was thinking too much till I've come up with such an excuse. Perhaps not, but I've just arrived here as a new student transferred from my old place in Boston. It still feels hard to settle into my new surroundings here, an irony to my usual boisterous nature. It's hard to understand my sudden transformation when I came here. I was never an introvert, really, but I just found it difficult to mix with the crowd here.

I do have a few new companions here, but they aren't what I call 'friendly'. Sure, they were polite enough to introduce themselves to me when I first came in, but soon after that they left me to my own devices (well, apart from kind-hearted Phillip, who still treats me like a buddy). So much for New Yorkers, I'd thought. As much as NYC was a famous name in the East Coast, I never did expect something like this from its inhabitants. Wonder why Dad never complained about his new job.

My thoughts suddenly came back to her, wondering if she still watched me from her seat. I risked a glance, but she wasn't there anymore. I breathed a sigh of relief, though I can't explain why I did so. Was it relief because she had left? Maybe so, I thought.

"She pines for you!" the voice echoed again. I flinched at the thought, batting it aside. As if I'd the time to look for one...

The bell tolled. That meant classes are about to start once more. Silently, I packed my books and finished the last piece of sandwich I held in my hand. I made a quick sprint to my locker, opening it to switch between my books for the next few lessons. I heard the locker next to mine swing open, though I couldn't tell who it was as my locker door blocked my view. Perhaps it was Phillip's or just another student.

Closing the door, I fumbled through a stash of leaflets I held in my hand before my hand just suddenly let go. The papers scattered to the ground, and I cursed silently at my ill luck. Students passed by ignorantly as I tried to pick them up, but a kind soul came to my aid. When I had collected all of my leaflets, I thanked my rescuer...

...only to find that it was that very same girl who had watched me closely at the canteen!

I stood there transfixed, too stunned to say a word. It had to be fortuitous that she was here. My view noted the open locker next to mine, and the notion hit me. All this while her locker had been next to mine? Another stroke of sheer coincidence?

She looked back at me with her blue eyes of hers and raised her brows in curiosity.

"Are you alright?" she asked. Her voice was like a melody, almost like the voice of an angel. My mind went blank again, still leaving me standing there like a fool. It took me a few seconds to snap out of it.

"Err...yeah, I-I-I'm alright-- I'm OK..." I stuttered. I felt like an ass when those words crept from my lips.

Her gaze still lingered into mine. I can't help but just... look back. There was something in her eyes that made it difficult for one to look away. You just felt like you wanted to look into them for all eternity. It was almost like a place you couldn't escape from so easily.

Eye contact broke off in what felt like forever. She smiled softly, and it made me feel nervous. Wait a minute: me, nervous? With a girl? Never has something like this happened before! Good grief, I thought, what's going on within me?

"I'll see you later," she said in that voice of hers. She walked away - confidently, I could tell. I however stood there like a mannequin as I watched her go, until Phillip spooked me from behind. He noticed her in the distance before she turned a corner and disappeared from sight.

"Man, are you a lucky dude," he then spoke in a whisper.

I gave him a quizzical stare. He grinned widely when I did so.

"That Caitlin is a real introvert, she is. Everyone knows that she doesn't talk much, and if she does she says very little. Believe me, the boys like someone like her but they just hate the fact she's so darned silent. Penny tells me that Caitlin's been like that for a very long time, though no one knows why.

"You, however," - here he jabbed me playfully in the chest, still grinning - "you're probably the only dude she's ever spoken to first! I'll bet the other guys are gonna drop their jaws when they hear this."

"I don't want to be famous, Phil," I told him sternly as I made a move.

"Hey, I won't tell anyone, Mike," he assured me, his grin unyielding. He put his arm around my shoulder as we walked for our next class. "Besides, sooner or later everyone'll know."

I rolled my eyes. Never did I expect something like this to start. And I told myself I wouldn't make a name among the entire student community, like back in my old school in Boston. But now with this Caitlin in the picture...

"She pines for you!"

I shut the notion away and thought nothing about it. But even so, the memory of her clear blue eyes floats around my head even till now. What's in store for me now?

Memory of the Day

Memory of the day: Everybody admires Tim's bike!

This was at his party two years back. It was just me, Tim, Sara, Kah Nyan, Xuan Xu, Leon, Thomas, Bryan, Nick Chin, Chris Chow and a couple other dudes hanging out together before Tim bade us farewell. Later in the day, Jia-Ee and Pui Yee came by too to see him. Though things didn't really work out, nevertheless we still had loads of fun in the end.

Ah, good memories...

Invitation Time!

Here yea, here yea! 'tis an announcement I'd like to make!

Since the results are coming up fast, I have decided to hold a simple outing somewhere sometime soon, preferably on the day the results will been collected. With the date not yet announced, I can only speculate that it'll be on the 16th of March. So, if you really want to join me, please call me up and state whenever you'll be free whatsoever and any other important detail that needs attention. I'll inform you of any changes whatsoever.

Here I have the list of whom I'd like to invite. If your name's not on it, let me know you're interested too!

RJ
Thean Soong
Thomas Liew
Monil
Sue Jean
Nakhieeran
Nahulan
Hon Wai
Wai Keong
Nick Chen
Venkeeran

Let's just hope we have a good reason to celebrate! =)

Updates Again

Well, the results are coming up really soon, and I must admit I'm very much nervous about the whole thing. Of course, who wouldn't be? It's the SPM results after all, the one that will change your destiny forever - whether you get stuck in Form 6 or escape to college or university. Some friends of mine were lucky enough to get a place in an institution of higher education (like Thomas, Ban Siong and Sue Jean) while myself, I'm just waiting for my rocket to come and get me the hell outta here!

There are a few choices I have. I can try applying to INTI again for the Leadership X-Cellence Award (though I have to see if I have 6As at least!), or wait for my Matriculation approval, or try somewhere else like Sunway (which is expensive) or HELP (which is expensive).

I'll have to take my chances. But whatever it is, I'll keep my eye out for opportunities. For now, it's just all about work!

BTW, I have some old books and notes I'd like to give away, since they aren't useful to me anymore. Anybody inrerested in them? Do call me up on my number, yeh?

I'll see you readers for now!